The Unexpected Guest

However anxiety inducing

I guess I prefer

Connect over

disconnect

Because fearful neglect

Will ring in my ears

And I snap

as your footsteps draw near

The reality is…

I want you here

The reality is…

I’m afraid I’ll disappear

And you validate

My deepest fears

No I’m not alone

My dear, Anxiety’s here

 

©️ 2019 MABELLENA

Living In Anxiety

Welcome to my house

Where walls shake

And windows break

Black cats walk along cracks

On their hind legs

Hands wind faster

And time evaporates

 

I lay in bed at night

Wide awake

Trapped in the circles

of my mind…

A dizzying dance of shadows

Against the smallest shed of light

 

Fears crawl out of cupboards

And monsters hover

Feeding on the lies

Of their sisters and brothers

Wreaking havoc

As I exist in two states:

Tremors and shudders.

 

Locked in my house

Will I ever escape?

I can’t measure the moment.

I can only count the days.

 

©️ 2018 MABELLENA